so not only did she not take what you said about how you feel into account, but she also invaded your privacy. i am very quickly coming to dislike this woman.
ah. well, ignore her to the best extent you can due to her being your parental figure. >:( because family is sometimes dumb as hell. also i hope you werent hurt by what she said because it was kind of ridiculous <:P
I t h u r t .
I stood up for myself, and she insulted me. I never know what she wants from me anymore. I eat too much, then too little. She encourages me to become more confident, then shoots me down when I try to get my points in and say my rights.
I don’t know what to do. Especially when she makes threats to kick out my girlfriend.
sigh, yeah, my dads a lil like that, too. where they want you to do things, but when it comes to -them-, it’s a different story. though, when parents are ridiculous like that (and are hypocritical, non-sensical, and just all-around hard to deal with), the best thing to do really is to not let it get to you too deeply. be frustrated, but dont let it haunt you. after all, you know they’re being ridiculous. just because they’re not receptive to what you have to say doesnt make them any less ridiculous.
though i would be pissed if my parents threatened to kick out my squeeze for no real reason except possibly to get to me.
jesus fuck dude. ive heard that theres major downsides to lucid/vivid dreams, but fuuuuuck. :(
Lucid dreaming is different to vivid dreaming, my friend. Reaching lucidity means that you’ve recognized you’re in a dream, and you can stabilize yourself and take control of the world. Vivid dreaming means that everything seems so much more real, even when the paranormal and supernatural begin to unfold around you. It means you’re much more aware, and that you’re more prone to actually feeling what happens in the dreams.
I’ve always been able to dream vividly. Lucidity, on the other hand, is something hard for me to achieve. And when I do achieve it and recognize myself in the dream, I can’t take control of my environment. It’s awful.
Being afflicted by chronic nightmares at the same time as having vivid dreams leads to a very horrible conclusion. Believe you me. <:(
damn…
though by ‘lucid’ i think i used the wrong expression. i meant….the transition? sleep paralysis? when people are unable to move but can see/feel sometimes terrifying things. happened to a friend of mine, before he figured out lucid dreaming.
my dreams tend to be very…emotionally distant. if i think about it, i have nothing but what people would call nightmares, but despite pain, or horror, im so apathetic that im almost…fine to be murdered, or attacked, or whatever.
its only when i wake up that im actually scared or upset. luckily i dont dream all that often, and re-occuring dreams is a thing. scary dreams arent as scary if you know what’s going to happen, i guess. <:)
though that really sucks for you, damn. wish 'Dreamless Sleep’ potions were a thing, for you. theres no way to stop them, im guessing?
1f we’re be1ng honest, wh1ch we are… because 1t just a1n’t fly 1f we weren’t… then 1 gotta say that 1 don’t know why 1’m so skittish. 1t’s a b1g load of b*ll 1f you ask me… but 1 don’t know how to f1x 1t, doll.
1 always adm1red you as a roleplayer… d1d you know that two of my muses had th1ng for your d1rk? so that’s gotta say someth1ng… about you and your sk1lls, you know? rad stuff, dude… 1 don’t th1nk you should worry about anyth1ng, yeah.
maybe 1t’s how 1 always feel obl1gated to do th1ngs… or maybe because 1 want to be perfect. 1 bet you know that feel1ng, doll… perfect1on1st’s woes and yeah. gotta overcome that to get back in the game… th1ngs’ll be pretty dope aga1n 1f 1 can just do that. but 1 doubt 1’m strong enough to get there… too eas1ly stressed.
1’m try1ng, 1 th1nk. maybe 1 am, maybe 1’m not… that’s one of those th1ngs that’s real open to 1nterpretat1on, you know? 1 don’t th1nk 1 am, but chuffy l1kes to say otherw1se. she’s one dynam1te gal, but 1 reckon she’s too n1ce to me…
po1nt of th1s conversat1on 1s that the more 1 persevere, the worse 1 get… to the po1nt where 1 s1t down and sob. leg1t1mately sob, doll. really pathet1c stuff…
1’m sort of hopeless. yeah.
i FEEL YOU, aLOT, i THINK, aBOUT THE PERFECTIONISM AND THE WEIRD STRESS THAT COMES OUT OF, wELL, nOWHERE,
tHE KIND THAT YOU CAN’T REALLY FIGHT, sINCE YOU DON’T REALLY KNOW WHY IT’S THERE,
hEH, aH, lIKE THE PUSHING THROUGH IT AND FEELING BETTER AFTERWARD THING? tHAT’S KIND OF RARE FOR ME, iT’S GOOD WHEN IT HAPPENS, bUT OTHERWISE YOU FEEL LIKE OF,,,sTUCK,
iN YOUR COMFORT ZONE, wHERE YOU FEEL AT HOME,
hOMESTUCK, i GUESS YOU CAN SAY? (sORRY, tHAT WAS TERRIBLE,)
i MEAN, i DON’T EXACTLY KNOW WHAT IT’D FEEL LIKE TO BE OBLIGATED TO ROLEPLAY, oR DRAW, bUT I CAN IMAGINE IT DOESN’T HELP, aND WOULD, uH, eASILY SCARE ME INTO A ‘iF I DON’T DO ANYTHING, tHEN I CAN’T BE BAD AT ANYTHING’ KIND OF MINDSET? aND I DON’T EVEN HAVE THE FOLLOWING YOU DO (tHAT YOU DESERVE, oF COURSE, bUT I’D BE INTIMIDATED? wOW,)
aLSO, wOAH, wHAT? tWO OF YOUR MUSES? i KNOW YOUR FEATHERED CUTIE, hEH, wAS ONE, bUT, aH, tHE OTHER?
i THINK YOU’RE A, pRETTY AWESOME ROLEPLAYER YOURSELF, sO, lIKE, eVEN IF YOU DOUBT YOURSELF, tHAT IS STILL A THING THAT IS TRUE,
mY LIKING YOUR RPING, thAT IS,
mY CONFIDENCE AS A ROLEPLAYER KIND OF TOOK A FEW HITS WHEN DIRK WAS ACTIVE, wHICH I SUPPOSE IS PART OF WHY I HAVE DIFFICULTY GETTING BACK INTO IT, bUT,,, iT’S NICE TO KNOW THAT I WASN’T AWFUL, yOU KNOW? }:) tHANKS,
i THINK, aND HAVE TOLD OTHERS, tHOUGH, tHAT ROLEPLAYING, aBOVE ALL THINGS, nEEDS TO BE fun, oR ELSE THERE’S NO POINT DOING IT, dON’T FORCE YOURSELF, dON’T FEEL BAD FOR NOT WANTING TO, aND DON’T TRIVIALIZE YOUR FEELINGS,
tHE WAY YOU FEEL IS LEGIT, aND NOT PATHETIC, sOMETIMES THINGS JUST MAKE YOU FEEL, nOT SO GREAT, aND YOU’RE ALLOWED TO FEEL THAT WAY,
I DON’T KNOW IF I CAN I TRY SO HARD AND GET NOT FAR AND IN THE END IT DOESN’T EVEN MATTER.
wEEEEELLL,
uH, wHAT EXACTLY IS IT THAT MAKES YOU, gET NOT FAR?
iS IT THE SUDDEN,,,rP-BLOCK THAT I GET WHERE I JUST, kINDA, gET HELLA NERVOUS AND STRESSED OUT AND PRETTY MUCH JUST FLAIL A LOT?
bECAUSE FROM EXPERIENCE I’VE FOUND THAT IF I CHARGE IN HORNS FIRST AND PUSH ON, y'KNOW, dESPITE THAT, tHEN I GET THE HANG OF IT AGAIN AND I FEEL A LOT BETTER,
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