sometimes…… when you keep testing people to see if they will leave…. they will leave…… sometimes… people will leave you… because you’re a bad person…. sometimes people will leave for no reason…. sometimes people will leave because you expect too much from them… sometimes you might need to acknowledge… that friends aren’t your therapist… and did not go through 12 years of training to handle your meltdowns… and you need to find a way to reasonably communicate when you’re feeling unwell if you really like this person, trust this person, and want them to stay around you… having a fear of abandonment cannot be something you tell them to lock them into your orbit.. you need to take responsibility for the things you say & how you treat people… its that simple