Ok but think about Dirk and how when he gets there what he’s gonna see is the fucking only love of his life that he’s known, crumpled on the floor along with his best fucking friend right behind him and that right there is goign to tear him apart, it’s going to shred apart his heart and either he’s going to go berserk or completely give up and i dont know if im ready for dirk to show emotion i might just fling myself into the abyss